Ok---I've wallowed in my misery long enough. Not that I'm not feeling like garbage over the turn of events. I am. I have a sick and disgusted feeling in my gut and nothing has changed in that regard. However, I am ready to turn the corner for a few reasons.
First of all, I am by nature an activist. Whenever something happens, my default mode is to DO SOMETHING no matter what it is I'm involved with.
Secondly, I just don't want to feel miserable any longer than I have to. While there can be growth in pain and failure, there is a limit to how much of that is productive before it just swallows you up in profound depression. I've reached that line and my inner self says that it's time to move on!! But rest be assured----I'm not responding to the army of "get over it" people. They can suck a lemon or worse, and it is THEY who need to get over it!! I am doing this on my own internal time clock in my own way and for my own reasons.
Finally, I turned 60 in September, and that number is driving me. I am healthy and vigorous, and who knows how long that will last? I see this next decade in my life as perhaps a final hurrah to throwing myself totally into the things that matter to me and making the biggest difference I can make.
The big things in my life are my family, my Mary Kay business, my athletic pursuits, and my political involvement. I have big plans and goals for my business and I have continuing plans for triathlons, running races, and just keeping my conditioning for these events. But the politics, well, it's time to move in a different direction.
For those who've read this blog, I've been in politics for 44 years as an activist, candidate, political consultant, party official. I've spent the last four years protesting the sexism of the 2008 election. Now that the sexist-in-chief has been reelected, there is little to be gained in opposition to him. My goal, as you may have read and like so many others of you, was for him to pay for his deeds. Well, if he is to pay, it won't be by losing an election, and as a result I'm done moving in that direction. It's just not worth the trouble being that kind of angry so long. I won't ever really like having him as my president however. That's something that's not going to change.
So I've got this other idea in my head, and I'd love to get input and ideas from anyone who cares to comment. Here it is. I've noticed that regardless of political persuasion, when I relay the statistics that I keep listed on the right column of this blog, people are genuinely shocked. People don't realize how poorly women have performed at the top. It was shocking to me too when I stumbled onto this information. Who knew?
So I'm thinking of taking this message on the road. I want to speak to any group that will have me. My main interest is to educate and to stimulate conversation. I'd like to speak to lots of young people as well-----who knows on whose ears this info will fall?
To get started, I've got an op ed piece for my local paper in the works and hopefully I'll get it into other papers too. I'm going to hold my first event at my home and invite prominent women I know and also other activists. I'm going to have to mend some fences, but I'll do it. My talk/conversation will be nonpartisan. I'm completely finished working through the parties. They aren't really interested in advancing women all that much, and a message like this one will get lost every single time when something deemed "more important" comes along. I think trying to educate people outside of the political structure is probably more effective.
I'm going to give the facts, and then ask people for their comments, ideas and also their recommendations of other groups I can take my talk to. As I think about this whole thing, it is an updated version of the "consciousness raising groups" of the later 60's and early 70's. It wouldn't be such a bad thing if others of us do the same thing to get the message out there. It goes without saying that I'm willing to travel just about anywhere to speak and get the facts out.
I guess I'll never know if this will work if I don't give it a whirl. Your thoughts?