The Democratic National Convention (DNC) starts in a few days, and I have promised myself (and my readers) that I am going to watch it. And I will. I have a much busier work schedule this week than last, so I won't be watching it as much as I watched the RNC. And I will be watching it on CSPAN. I really loved watching the other convention on CSPAN. I felt like I was there in the arena, and it was nice forming my own impressions and opinions of what went on rather than have some bloviating talking head telling me what I should think. I even called my friend T on the phone one day (she lives in a different city than I do), and we spent close to three hours on the phone watching the RNC on CSPAN together while the state roll call vote was taken to formally nominate and elect Romney as the party's nominee. We were like giggling girls in the bleachers watching it all. It was fun!!!!
I must confess that I am DREADING watching the DNC. I can't fathom that my feelings are still too raw from what happened in 2008. I mean, so much time has past but I'm still mad at the Democrats. If any of the Democrats who have stayed on board in 2008 instead of leaving like the 4 million of us who did depart the party choose to come onto this blog to excoriate me for expressing myself, I'm going to delete your comments. I don't mind having a real conversation about it, but I'm not dealing with name calling, insults, nasty abortion talk, character assassination, shaming, arrogance, etc. You won't win me back that way, so what good does it do you to go there? If you want to comment politely, I'm happy to have a conversation. Ok?
To me and many like me, the list of villains from 2008 is long and deep. And that list includes women. Four million of us party stalwarts left the party because we felt betrayed in the worst way. We gave our lifeblood to the party only to be body slammed. In my case it was 40 years of continual service to the Democrats, and my story is hardly unique. Many of the people who read Women Win Too lived through the events of 2008 the way I did. This blog has a sizeable and growing readership, and often I find myself expressing the sentiments of alot of other folks. Some of the people I speak for have had to go underground in order not to lose their jobs. Others went underground to save their sanity. Yet others "came out" the way I did and took alot of incoming firepower. We were completely unprepared for this turn of events. Many of us had never been in this kind of hot seat before. We all lost friends, family members, and more than that for the stand we took. Even now, since people cannot fathom leaving the Democrats for the reasons we did, we still take alot of heat. In truth, looking back, if you had told any of us in 2006 that by the time the election of 2008 rolled around that we'd be out of the Democratic Party and voting for Republicans, third party candidates-----ANYTHING BUT DEMOCRATS-----we'd have told you you were nuts. However, that's what happened. We found out who our friends were real fast, and we made a whole lot of new friends in the process.
But my anger hasn't abated. Instead of feeling the joy of having two major party leaders, Nancy Pelosi and Debbie Wasserman-Schultz, being female, I see them as part of the betrayal. Particularly Pelosi who the "crowd of 4 million" sees as a real enemy. We see her as having had alot of power which she used to make sure that Hillary Clinton lost the primary. How do you define someone, a trailblazer in her own right, blocking the path for another woman trying to break another glass ceiling, someone who could/should have been the first female president of the U.S.? Traitor is the first word that comes to mind. My sentiments for Wasserman-Schultz are a little less intense. She was a major advocate for Hillary, but the minute the primary battle was over, she swept the sexism under the rug in order to advance her own career. My husband keeps telling me that these people are all politicians and will always look out for #1 and he's right. But I'm still disappointed at the women who turned their back on Hillary. And angry too.
I could go on and on. And since I am bound and determined to watch the DNC alot of ugly memories are flooding back from 2008. I attended the 2008 DNC, not as a delegate, but as a guest of the Republican Party. I was with a group of Hillary Clinton Democrats who had left the party, people like John Coale, husband of Greta Van Susteren and a wealthy trial attorney and major Democratic donor, Democratic congressman Tim Penny of Minnesota who left the party (ironically, while a Democrat he had campaigned AGAINST me when I ran for Congress---we had a good laugh over that!!), Lynn Forrester Rothschild, the dynamic businesswoman, a gentleman who was a member of the diplomatic corps in the Clinton administration whose name escapes me, and others. We went from press conference to interview ad nauseum in our days in Denver along with Carly Fiorina, the former CEO of Hewlett Packard who was the liason to our group from the McCain campaign.
Anyways, here we are in 2012, and although I have voted for some Democrats since 2008, it has been tough doing so. My votes for Democrats have been some friends from the old days, mostly local candidates. I have also voted against other friends sad to say. There are a few Democratic officeholders I know who felt exactly the way I did but couldn't say or do anything about it for fear of losing their elected jobs. In some ways I speak for them even today. I know of at least one Democrat I will vote for this year. Although I am technically listed as a Republican, it is only because I wanted to vote in the Republican presidential primary. I see myself as an Independent. I suppose as the years go on, I'll be voting for more Democrats. But for now, the party is very tainted for me. Once the Obama era is over, it might be easier to feel better about my old party. But not now, not yet.
I'm going to watch the DNC goings on because I want to see if there are any women on the agenda who I can feel good about supporting. I know that I truly love listening to Sen. Kirsten Gillibrand, but I haven't seen her listed as a speaker. I used to like the tough-talking Senator Barbara Mikulski, and I'm hoping to feel that way again. So as I look to move on, hopefully I can find something to believe in with some Democratic women. We still need more women elected, and I'll do what I can to keep my eye on things.
And just like having been the voice for some who couldn't speak out, I'll watch the DNC for those of you who can't bring yourself to do it yet. And no matter what I'm watching Bill Clinton's speech. That sly old dawg is up to something, and it's not saving Obama's ass. I'm putting my money on the fact that he's got his eye on 2016 and getting Hillary into the White House. Maybe he'll dawg whistle some of that.........LOL!!!!!!!! That's one whistle I'm ready to hear.